pernah dengar ga quotes gini:

"If you love someone pray about it.
If it's meant to be God will lead them.
He will never lead them down the wrong path."

dan gue pernah, bukan cuman pernah..
sering..berdoa buat orang2 yg gue sayang..
buat mama-papa, abang-kakak-adik gue..
soib2 gue yg ngeselin tapi ngangeniin,
dan terutama, buat org yg dalam hati gue kagumi..
tapi entah kenapa..
gue ngerasa doanya ga ke jawab semua..
iya sih, keluarga gue ga ada juga yg jalannya gelap2 atau
jalan di jalan yg aneh2..
temen2 gue pada baik kok..
jail sih ada.. tapi ga brandal
tapi, ada satu temen gue nih...
seriingg bgt gue doain...
apa yg gue doain?
gue doain supaya dia ga dijalan yg  aneh2
tapi dia sudah disana..
lalu,gue berdoa, supaya dia keluar dari situ..
tapi, sepertinya sampai skrg dia belum juga keluar..
emangsih, gue tauu.
jawaban doa itu ada 3,

"ya"
 tidak"
"tunggu"

dan gue gatau..
jawabannya apaa unutk yg satu ini.
udah lumayan lama gue doain dia.
tapi dia ga berubah tuh..

tapi kita sebagai manusia ga boleh nyalahin Tuhan kan?
mungkin emg dianya juga ga ada niat kali ya buat kembali gitu..
gue disini berharap aja..
semoga dia ga makin aneh2..
semoga dia bisa kembali..
 "there's can be miracle, when you believe"
and i believe!!
munkin jawabannya tunggu kali yaaa..
dan saya menunggu :")

1 year ago

well, skrg gue pengen cerita dulu.. tenteng satu tahun yang lalu.

pas gue baru-baru jadi anak SMA.

Nah, pas pertama kali tau gue masuk SMA Negri 1 Batam,

perasaan gue? SENENG..banget.

kenapa?

ya iyalah, salah satu sekolah favorite di Batam.

ya tapi sebenernya rada sedih, karna gue harus nyari temen baru.

secara dari sekolah gue yg daftar kesitu cuman 4 org, dan kami berempat masuk situ.

pas hari sabtu, pra-mos.. waktu itu kami di bagi gugus yg nantinya bakalan jadi temen kelas kami.

pertama, temen gue, Yeni udah di sebutin namanya,dia kelas XD.

kedua dan ketiga, Icha dan Nico namanya disebutin, mereka berdua kelas XC.

dan pas nama gue ga disebutin juga sampe kelas XF, sumpah gue sedihh!

gue masuk kelas terkhir, XG.

perasaan gue? keseelll.

is kok bisaaa??

serasa kelas buangan-sebenarnya ga buangan juga sih-

terus kami di suruh masuk kekelas gitu.

nah disini, gue confuse be-ge-te.

Gue duduk sama siapaaaa?

Gue boleh duduk di situ ga ya?

Gue duduk dimanaaa?

somebody help.

at last,

gue ambil kursi paling belakang, paling pojok, paling jauh dari pintu.

habis ga mungkin gue ambil paling depan, ga banget.

yg tengah udah pada di huni.

fix gue ngerasa jadi anak cupu.

terus datang deh cewe, dia belum dapet tempat duduk, jadi kami duduk berdua..

dia chairmate pertama gue, Keren.

setelah tau nama gugus kami, Bagong, dalam hati gue berpikir,

astaga..

nah, jadi katanya ambil tema "Perwayangan".

okay lah, setidaknya gue punya temen sebangku.

menurut gue panitia MOS nya kreatif..

kenapa,habis nama yg di kasih unik unik,

jadi kami tuh harus bawa bekal, dan bekalnya di tentuin.

tapi mereka kasih kode gitu -gue suka bgt mecahin kode, biar serasa detektif kaya conan getoo:p-

 lumayan seneng deh pokoknya pas Mos.

tapi, gue belum kenal semua anak kelas. cuman diiikkkiiiittt bgt yg gue tau.

nah kelas kami, dapat predikat.. "kelas ter-heboh"

habis nya temen2 gue yg cowo, pantang kenal malu.

yel-yel kelas kami, menurut gue kocak-walau gue ga hafal-

nyanyian kami pas nyambut kakak kelas juga kocak, gue hapal mati xD

"kakak cantik, abang ganteng,

kami dari bagong.

selamat datang kekelas kami ini,

semoga semuanya Happy"-

terus kami kricing2 gitu.

yg bikin kocak itu gerakannya..

hehehe, tidak terlupakan deh~

Setelah selesai MOS,

kami ada acara budi pekerti.

ya disitu gue lebih mengenal tementemen gue yg seagama sama gue, Kristen.

laluuu, setelah liburan dan segala macam,

kami ada acara,seperti seminar gitu..

Motivasi buat kami gitulah.

diadakan di hotel di daerah Nagoya-ini bukan Nagoya yg di Jepang-

jadi, gue nebeng sama temen gue yg bawa motor, Sandra.

setelah melewati jurang dan lembah,

melintasi genangan air hujan dan halilintar~eaaakkk

pergilah kami.

nah setelah selesai seminar, kami lunch dulu. jadi, gue gabungnya bukan ke anak kelas gue, tapi ke anak kelas si Icha.

terus selesai makan, kami mau jalan dulu..

nah kami ke lantai yg sepiii bgt.

buset, kami takut, sepi bener,

yg ada pun barang2 yg gak gue tau namanya.

terus kami cepet2 pencet tombol lift..

nah setelah acara nya selesai..

gue mencari Sandra..

tapi gue tersesat di antara luapan anak angkatan gue yg lagi jalan keluar.. gue masuk kedalam.. jadi gue lawan arus.

terus tiba2 ada suara cowo yg denger..

ngomong ke gue.

"eh, nama kamu etrisakan?"

dia ngejulurin tangannya.

gue masih kek org bego..

dieem aja. kenapa?

ya siapa yg ngeh gitu kan.

gue lagi pusing nyariin temen gue, yg hidup dan mati gue sama dia, eh tiba2 aa yg ngajakin kenalan..

teruuusss..

okee teruss.. at last gue bilang, "haaa? eh iya." tapi ga julurin tangan.

masih bengong, mikirin sandra.

terus, tiba2 beliau triak ke arah lain.

"eh ini ya yg ko suka?"

sriusan aja.. siapa yg ga kaget di triakin gitu.

karna ga mau berlama2 dan ga jelas..

gue kabur aja. pergi ke pintu utama.

nungguin sandra di situ.

ternyata beliau lewat dan sandra blm datang, yowess.. gue cau ke tempat parkiran.

untung aja gue sempet ngeliat sandra dan triak2 dan melambai2 kek orang gila.

terus kami ngeluarin motor dan pulang.

setelah beberapa hari kemudian..

gue baru tau.. ternyata beliau teman kelas gue, tapi ga tau temen beliau itu siapa..

tapi gue punya perkiraan, tapi cukup gue dan Tuhan saja lah yang tau..

tapi beliau ini biasa aja gitu.

ga inget kejadian yg kmaren2 itu,

padahal gue mati penasaran siapa yg dia maksud,

dan karena gue cewe*dan gue benci hal ini* ga mungkin gue nanya,

bisa2 gue di bilang sok ke pd an gitu kan.

jadi, gue milih diam saja.. "Silent is gold", menurut gue begitulah.

tapi dalem hati taulah gimana...

teruss..

si beliau ini pny chairmate, yg menurut gue berbakat, tapi ngeselin banggeeett!

ah ngeselin klimaks.

kadang gue berpikir.. salah gue sama itu orang apaa? kenapa dia jail bgt? dan ga tanggung2 mukulin jidat yg mulus ini..

salah gitu kalau jidat sedikit lebar? toh ga selebar landasan di bandara juga-_-

belum lagi ejekkan2 yg lain.

buset, gue ngerasa ngalamin neraka sendiri.

kadang tuh gue ngomong, dia sewot sendiri. gajelas bgt kan?

kadang gue ngerjain tugas.. dateng dateng aja gangguin.

gimana ya? risih lah pokoknya..

eh tau tau chairmate bilang...

"eh ris, ko suka ya sama dia?"

dalem hati.. jangan sampaii.

"enggalah"

"is gamungkin ga punya feel ke dia.. jgn bohong ris"

"feel ke dia? adalah. illfeel mah iya."

"ntar pasti kangen sama masa2 dia ngejailin"

gue orgnya realistis dan logis.. ga naif.

menrut gue perkataan dia itu ada benernya juga..

kita  itu bisa kangen pas sesuatu itu ga ada kan?

jadi gue bilang deh,

"yaudah.. jadi kenangan selama kelas X deh"

ya dan berlanjut lah gosip ria kami lewat kertas.

kenapa kami ga ngmng lgsg?

simple, depan gue soibnya.

jadi ya gitulah.. kembali ke jaman SD, surat-menyurat.

dan suratnya masih tersimpan rapi :D

hahaha...

gue sebel sama teman gue yg bilangin kami sempet dekat,

bukannya apa2..

jangankan dekat, ngomongan sama dia aja serasa urat gue mau putus semua.

bawaannya emosi terus.. bukan karna pms tiap hari.

jadi jangan salahin gue atas semua2 deh.

sampe temen2 gue pada bilang..

riss, napasih gapeka banget?

actually gue peka banget, makanya gue pura2 ga peka

agak sulit dimengerti, tapi coba renungi pasti ngerti.

ya karna gue ga suka gitu..

kalau ya ga suka, mau gmn?

tapi gue percaya kok, dia juga ga suka gue.

temen2 kelas aja tuh yg mungkin terlalu nanggepin.

well, udah ah capek ngetik.

sekian dulu yaaw blogg~

see ya next

Total Eclipse Of The Heart

"Total Eclipse Of The Heart"

Turn around,
Every now and then I get a little bit lonely
and you never come around.
Turn around,
Every now and then I get a little bit tired
of listening to the sound of my tears
Turn around,

Every now and then I get a little bit nervous
that the best of all the years have gone by.
Turn around,
Every now and then I get a little bit terrified
and then I see the look in your eyes.
Turn around, bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart
Turn around, bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart

Turn around,
Every now and then I get a little bit restless
and I dream of something wild
Turn around,
Every now and then I get a little bit helpless
and I´m lying like a child in your arms.
Turn around,
Every now and then I get a little bit angry
and I know I´ve got to get out and cry.
Turn around,
Every now and then I get a little bit terrified
but then I see the look in your eyes.
Turn around, bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart.
Turn around, bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart.

And I need you now tonight 

and I need you more than ever
and if you only hold me tight 

we´ll be holding on forever.
And we´ll only be making it right 

´cause we´ll never be wrong
together we can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don´t know what to do and I´m always in the dark
We´re living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight, 

forever´s gonna start tonight
forever´s gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love

 but now I´m only falling apart
There´s nothing I can do, 

a total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life

 but now there´s only love in the
dark.
There´s nothing I can say, 

a total eclipse of the heart

Turn around, bright eyes
Turn around, bright eyes
Turn around,
Every now and then I know you´ll never be the boy you always
wanted to be.
Turn around,
But every now and then I know you´ll always be the only boy 
that wanted me the way that I am
Turn around,
Every now and then I know there´s no one in the universe as 
magical and wondrous as you
Turn around,
Every now and then I know there´s nothing any better
there´s nothing that I just wouldn´t do.

Turn around, bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart
Turn around, bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight, forever´s gonna start tonight
forever´s gonna start tonight


Once upon a time I was falling in love 

but now I´m only falling apart
There´s nothing I can do, 

a total eclipse of the heart

A total eclipse of the heart, 

a total eclipse of the heart
Turn around bright eyes
Turn around bright eyes, 

Turn around

i like this song too much.

maybe because these lyric.

ecspecially : 

"Once upon a time there was light in my life

 but now there´s only love in the
dark.
There´s nothing I can say, 

a total eclipse of the heart"

remind me of someone..

hope you like this song too :)) {}

Give your heart a break

the day I first met you
You told me you'd never fall in love
 But now that I get you
I know fear is what it really was
Now here we are, so close
Yet so far, haven't I passed the test?
When will you realize
Baby, I'm not like the rest


Don't wanna break your heart
 I wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to waste
So let me give your heart a break
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break
Your heart a break Oh, yeah yeah

On Sunday, you went home alone
There were tears in your eyes
I called your cell phone, my love
But you did not reply
The world is ours, if you want it
We can take it, if you just take my hand
There's no turning back now
Baby, try to understand

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to waste
So let me give your heart a break Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break
Your heart a break
There's just so much you can take
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break
Your heart a break
Oh, yeah yeah

When your lips are on my lips
And our hearts beat as one
But you slip right out of my fingertips
Every time you run, whoa

 Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to waste
So let me give your heart a break
Cuz you've been hurt before I can see it in your eyes
You try to smile it away
Some things, you can't disguise
Don't wanna break your heart Baby,
I can ease the ache, the ache
So, let me give your heart a break
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break
Your heart a break
There's just so much you can take
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break
Your heart a break
Oh yeah,yeah
The day I first met you You told me you'd never fall in love

Demi Lovato

Talking to the Moon

Talking To The Moon

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have

Chorus:

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
what I know

Cause when the
sun goes down
someone's talking back
Yeah
They're talking back

Chorus:

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

Ahh Ahh,
Ahh Ahh,

Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night
I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you

In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away

Bruno Mars~